Why? You said you will change.
We helped you. We came to your rescue. We walked you through the pain. We lent a listening ear. We sat down together with you. We thought of some solutions for you. We've discussed. We've contemplate.
We've been very patient. But it has run thin. The patience is running thin. And now I think, it has ran out. I have ran out of patience.
I thought it's a wake up call. I thought it's a lesson learnt. I thought it's a turning point. But it is not. You did not change. All those tears are crocodile tears. All those pain are selfish pain, selfish tears. You did not regret of what you have done. You did not regret the mistakes you've made. You did not cry because what you've neglected.
I expected more of you. I hoped n wished more of you. I care for you. Now you crushed me. My hopes, expectations and respect of you, all crushed.
I now think that what they say of you is true. What they thought of you is true. Now I begin to doubt and blame myself that I actually protected you, cared for you and backed you up. I dunno why I stood up for you in exchange for such treatment from you.
I think you were already dead long ago. Unfortunately I just realised it a few days ago. I realised there is no way you gonna change. If tired and busy is your excuse. So are everyone. So are the whole world. but we will never be not busy or not tired. we just have to deal with it.
unfortunately, you have none of the above. even if you do have them, they are all reserved for yourself and frens.
We've been very patient. But it has run thin. The patience is running thin. And now I think, it has ran out. I have ran out of patience.
I thought it's a wake up call. I thought it's a lesson learnt. I thought it's a turning point. But it is not. You did not change. All those tears are crocodile tears. All those pain are selfish pain, selfish tears. You did not regret of what you have done. You did not regret the mistakes you've made. You did not cry because what you've neglected.
I expected more of you. I hoped n wished more of you. I care for you. Now you crushed me. My hopes, expectations and respect of you, all crushed.
I now think that what they say of you is true. What they thought of you is true. Now I begin to doubt and blame myself that I actually protected you, cared for you and backed you up. I dunno why I stood up for you in exchange for such treatment from you.
I think you were already dead long ago. Unfortunately I just realised it a few days ago. I realised there is no way you gonna change. If tired and busy is your excuse. So are everyone. So are the whole world. but we will never be not busy or not tired. we just have to deal with it.
we have responsibilities. we have manners. we have pride. we have respect. we have a bond.
unfortunately, you have none of the above. even if you do have them, they are all reserved for yourself and frens.
come when you want, leave when you wish, talk when you're please,
help when you feel like it, pray when you're not busy, wake up when you have to
that is you
It's ok. in 7 months you'll reach adulthood. you'll be free to do what you want. even more than what you can do now.
Allah forgive me.
Allah forgive me.
Allah forgive me.
For I've failed.
I've failed.
Fail to love and care for her.
Fail to be a good example.
Fail to be therefor her.
Fail to guide her.
Fail to save her.
Forgive me Allah.
Help me Allah.
Tell she, that she does not need her
Tell she that 2 is better than 3
Tell she that I've tried to help her
Tell she that we must let her be
Allah forgive me.
Allah forgive me.
Allah forgive me.
For I've failed.
Allah forgive me.
Allah forgive me.
For I've failed.
posted by Junez at
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