My AveNue

Why? You said you will change.

2008-11-07T15:12:00.002+08:00

We helped you. We came to your rescue. We walked you through the pain. We lent a listening ear. We sat down together with you. We thought of some solutions for you. We've discussed. We've contemplate.

We've been very patient. But it has run thin. The patience is running thin. And now I think, it has ran out. I have ran out of patience.

I thought it's a wake up call. I thought it's a lesson learnt. I thought it's a turning point. But it is not. You did not change. All those tears are crocodile tears. All those pain are selfish pain, selfish tears. You did not regret of what you have done. You did not regret the mistakes you've made. You did not cry because what you've neglected.

I expected more of you. I hoped n wished more of you. I care for you. Now you crushed me. My hopes, expectations and respect of you, all crushed.

I now think that what they say of you is true. What they thought of you is true. Now I begin to doubt and blame myself that I actually protected you, cared for you and backed you up. I dunno why I stood up for you in exchange for such treatment from you.

I think you were already dead long ago. Unfortunately I just realised it a few days ago. I realised there is no way you gonna change. If tired and busy is your excuse. So are everyone. So are the whole world. but we will never be not busy or not tired. we just have to deal with it.

we have responsibilities. we have manners. we have pride. we have respect. we have a bond.

unfortunately, you have none of the above. even if you do have them, they are all reserved for yourself and frens.

come when you want, leave when you wish, talk when you're please,

help when you feel like it, pray when you're not busy, wake up when you have to

that is you

It's ok. in 7 months you'll reach adulthood. you'll be free to do what you want. even more than what you can do now.

Allah forgive me.

For I've failed.

I've failed.

Fail to love and care for her.

Fail to be a good example.

Fail to be therefor her.

Fail to guide her.

Fail to save her.

Forgive me Allah.

Help me Allah.

Tell she, that she does not need her

Tell she that 2 is better than 3

Tell she that I've tried to help her

Tell she that we must let her be

Allah forgive me.
Allah forgive me.
Allah forgive me.
For I've failed.

I MUST DO SOMETHING. YOU ARE GETTING OUTTA HAND!

2008-08-22T17:58:00.003+08:00

I AM VERY ANGRY! with who you asked??!!! with a YOUNGER FAMILY MEMBER! LOOK I AM OLDER. I AM YOUR ELDER! I AM NOT ASKING FOR THE WORLD! I GAVE UP ASKING YOU TO DO ANYTHING! IS IT THAT NOW U ARE WORKING I CANT ASK YOU QUESTIONS??!!!! I HAVE NEVER SAID SUCH THINGS TO MY ELDERS! DAH KASI MUKA NAIK KEPALA. KALO ORANG TUA TU MENYUSAHKAN KAU, CAKAP. KITE SUMA BOLEH KASI SETTLE. SELALU NAK BUAT ALASAN UNTUK KAU. AKU DAH MENYAMPAH! YA SHES NOT COMPLETE ANYMORE. YA SHE IS NOT NORMAL ANYMORE. I HOPE U GET WAT YOU FIND FROM YOUR FRENS, YOUR BOYFRIEND, YOUR WORK, YOUR SCHOOL. BECOZ OBVIOUSLY WE CANT SATISFY WHAT YOUR NEED. YOU SAID WE ALWAYS PICK ON YOU! YOU TAKE A STEP BACK AND THINK WHAT YOU DO AH... YOU THINK WHAT U DO IS RIGHT EH??? I THINK YOU REALLY NEED ONE GOOD SMACKING!

Cry Baby Me

2008-08-22T17:44:00.002+08:00

I can be tough but i cry at the simplest thing. i dunno why...
I cried when I watch/see ....

a mother/granny cry be it real life or movies
family disputes on TV
children who are poor and unfortunate
elderly ones begging or in a plight
devoted love / undying love
tortured children
weddings
death
birth
the best and fast one :
Tarzan the cartoon movie 5 mins after it started becoz the tiger ate the baby gorilla. :(

well just why i cry... dunno. i can cry n cry just thinking abt wat i've seen.

renungan sejenak

2008-08-19T14:22:00.002+08:00

I actualll have nothing to write. but i just want to say my back ache like mad!! went to the cemetery last sunday to clear up the graves. went to 5 graves. it was hot and there were lots to do. we trimmed the grass and cleared the "semak". after all done i think it was the cause that i got the back ache. sigh.... baru sikit kan.
note to all... jenguk2 la kubur mrk yg telah pergi. Tak lama sekejap pun jadi la. kesian kubur tu terbiar macam takde sanak saudara. apala salahnye, lagi2 kalo ada kenderaan. everywhere in singapore takes less than 45 mins. takkan la tak bleh spare. asyik muka orang sama aje. bukan kite complain, it is just that nak juga la tgk org lain menziarah kubur tu.
jgn mara la ye... cakap je.

posa dah nak dtg... semoga kita diberi kesihatan utk menjalankan ibadah posa ye. salam!

are we sincere?

2008-04-13T02:28:00.002+08:00

You see... sometimes i wonder if we work sincere enough. dont get me wrong... I love my job. i really do. but sometimes i think we had to do things for show.. for some wayang so that others will get the glory. It is not as if the so-and-so is going to ask where or who is the staff who did this/that. we have our job scope. i think i doesnt come along with kissing some big shots ass so that the sch will be recognised. i overheard a colleague said "why cant so-and-so come unannounce. just come and see how life is at our sch" and it did ring a bell. ya eh.. why cant he/she does just that? is it really important for us to prim up the sch just becoz of one? i think we might as well do it really big and invite everybody. however that is not why i m fumed.

i dont mind being handed a responsibility, with every job comes with it's downs and perks. i can handle them. well so far i can la. however this last minute stupid tiny simple thing that ppl told us to do that irks me. the task is so easy must it be done by two ppl. why cant they open their eyes and see... hey look who's over tasked! why is it same old same old ppl doin the job???

dah takde orang lain ke???

i believe whatever level you teach you sure can do some silly placards and pictured cards?

you must be asking... so if it is why cant i do it then? well i can but i think those who really dont have ANY ANY task at hand (marking and paper setting not inc.) do the job? so tight with international friendship day... still got P6 pupils compo workshop... NE ambassador second training... i think ESSS results have to be collated soon,.... macam super champion done by uno person...

well... i hope i'll be in the very very best of health to go through all these...

nites.

(this is a late post : 14 April 2008)

Budhia the Boy who can't stop Running

2008-03-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

I watched the programme on Arts Central. I think it is really child exploitation. Biranti, Budhia's adopted father, was merely using him to gain fame and wealth. It is not as if Budhia will be able to spend the money that he has received through all the media coverage that Biranti has done.

HOW CAN A 3 YR OLD BOY BE MAKE TO RUN 70KM NON-STOP??!!!!!!! i think it is absolutely ABSURD!!!!!

Do i envy him? of course. but i think the time is just not right for him to be REALLY TRAINING for such long distance running. I dont think that any doctor will recommend it. How can someone even think that a 3 yr old should be doing all these???

Shouldn't Budhia enjoy his childhood??

It was said that this excessive running will cause arthiritis and some bone malfunctioning. If ever this child is found suitable and gifted, he should be in training under a professional coach. Budhia's dream is to have a bicycle. He wants to win a bicycle for his races. I pray the best will come for this special, special boy.

A week at my OWN PLACE

2008-02-28T18:12:00.003+08:00

Well, hello again. This whole week has been such a new and exciting feeling for me. Me and hubby decided (more like i initiated) that we should try living at OUR OWN PLACE for a week and see how it goes. It was and is fine! We did some groceries shopping as the fridge filled with junk food and no proper source of food. hahahha... I have tot of what to prepare, cook and all. only the missing chef's hat! hehe..
So I managed to cook one meal : Horfun... it can be better though. They did say practise make perfect right. What happen to the rest of the days? we have the honour to be served by the great chef my youngest sis, Atiqah @ Girl. And mind u how my hubby praised her cooking. If i might add, it was really sumptuous meals. We had suppers too... calorie attack!! This happen when both loves to eat. yikes...
I can feel that i am more attached to the house. It is starting to feel more like a house than a rented resort/villa, ya know.. I hope and pray one day.... one we'l make up our mind and move in for good. *pray together with me*
oh just to share My mum sounds happier too. If any of you reading, do sedekahkan al-fatihah semoga my mum lebih sihat. Thank you.

wahhhhh cobwebs here and there

2007-12-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

Well, it has been a very long time i know. but this december holidays seem very very dull one. the reason being i m not away! hahahha...
every week there is weddings to attend. unfortunately i had to miss one. i had to make a last minute trip to Bandung from 30 Nov- 6 Dec. NO NO NO..... It was not a holiday. Went to attend and grace the wedding ceremony of my hubby's cousin at Garut, Bandung Indonesia. it was.... errmmmm shall i say an ICTHINGLY stay.... my legs were the feast to the mozzies... they lurrrveee moi! cold cold icy showers, interesting food and groovy Dangdut singers (imagine Getai singers only Indos) hahha

then we went bandung... THANK GOD for HOTEL ROOMS.
it was small but just nice for us both. the bed, the AC, the cable tv, the hot showers, the seated toilet bowl, NO MOZZIES.. come to think of it, i think we, well at least i m spoilt!! not that i cant be in that condition, just not for wedding ceremonies where we need to look neat n nice. scratching here n there would not flatter the outfit! then we went to some sight-seeing.

they said i'm on a holiday but i said NO NO NO (tune to Amy Winehouse Rehab song)

this time, i was like in a group tour which is bad for me. hahhaha just no patience to be waiting for everyone. unlike to the places where i've been with families, those are places which i noe so i m free to come n go. but Bandung i've never been there before, so it was difficult.
cut story short, if u are ever in Bandung go these places,

for dining
1) Sapu Lidi (the one by paddy fields)
great food, wonderful service, knowledgeable waiters/ress, lovely sceneries, affordable n reasonable price. mind the winding road but all worth it.
2) Kampung Daun
nice atmosphere and relaxing surrounding but but expensive food little portion. hate the hot choc, more like very diluted Milo. go for the atmosphere and Iga steak.
3)Ayam Suharti
the only highlight is the ayam goreng, very nice with the crumbs. but never take away, it loses it's taste in the bag. eat the fried papaya leaves, delicious!

**Sindang Reret**
never go here! the waiter/ress simply lazy to serve those at lesehan (seated on the floor at balcony). food are not nice *blwueh* and the balconies infested with cobwebs.

for shopping
1) Pasar Baru
they have almost everything! must go. open your eyes for great bargains. 7 storeys high! each floor has their own theme. better to go from basement 1 to the top floor, shopping tip #5!
2) Cihampelas
they have lots of jeans materials here. almost like the street of Kuta in Bali. the street peddlers some times have great buys!
3) Factory Outlet
more hype and fashionable items. didnt go becoz on a budget, but u will definitely fine nice n cool stuff.

for sightseeing
1) Tangkuban Prahu
beautiful scenery of the volcanic crater (dormant for the the time being), cool weather but stink a bit due to the sulfur. beware of the street peddlers here, they are irritating, great at hustling and never to be con into buying. you buy from one, tonnes will come. you might wan to be due to sympathy, BUT IT AINT WORTH IT!
2) Ciater
hot spring they say, not too bad. if u willing to pay for some privacy, the pools are cleaner and better. if u just wanna soak ur feet, then jus prong urself one corner n have a taste at the 40*C hot spring water. just be sure to wash ur feet clean after. i dont recommend u swim in the common pool, better swim at the private ones.
3) Ciwideh
didnt go becoz it is 2hrs from hotel, heard it has hot spring and also volcanic crater. if u went before do share!

well dats it. oh ya, i am going to set up a stall at flea market at far east square on 16-17 dec! do come and check it out!

the last 'kopek' holidays

2007-06-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

this last week of sch holidays been a tight week. for 3 days last week went to KL. well it is literally sending my MIL for her shopping trip. i sent myself there for TUMMY FEAST! yum yum! thanks to my good fren recommendation, we went to Victoria Railway Restaurant delicious!!! you guys can go here to view at photos. bisman.fotopages.com

then supplementaries and tuitions. and today we had staff retreat. surprisingly, it was notas dull as i tot it would be. it was very interesting as the speaker was very interesting. and the activities were challenging and exciting. all that aside, i appreciate the time spent with other colleagues. we really set out differences aside so as to carry out the task given at optimum best! CONGRATS PEPZ!

alright, i forgot to blog this.....

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY SAYANG!! It may not be lavish or planned one, but i hope u enjoyed yourself. maybe we'll do a more belated one once we move in to our own house. hmmmmm... i wonder whose b'day's next?? *hint hint*

HAPPY 3RD YEAR ANNIVERSARY JUNE & MARWAN!!

2007-06-05T17:17:00.000+08:00

as the title said.... need not be explained. basically it's just a normal day. but nonetheless it's another year to our marriage. slowly but surely.

sometimes we forget

2007-05-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

sometimes we forget about the things that matter

things that were there before, now and maybe after

we take for granted all the things around us

and hurry to chase things that we lust.

sometimes we forget about the little things

constantly chasing big big dreams

we left those little thiongs hanging and lingering

u never noe when it'll leave thru the opened seam

sometimes we forget those short words

realise we not how great they are

love, hun, abang, sayang even sorry

last heard it seems to be very far

sometimes we forget to feel happy

be optimistic with every stride

we lose focus when we feel crappy

the Qi blown away with with great might

i am a forgetful person

but i am thankful for the people around me

who are constant reminders

of who i am, what i am and

how i can be a better person

another phase in life

2007-05-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

Another phase in life has come by a storm. We are going to have a place of our own soon. Though we've owned it for almost 5 months now, we have yet to move in. Still in amidst of renovation. Everything looks fine and well. Today I've decided to pen down our monthly expenditure as a couple; am getting ready to set sail on our own boat. The figures are more or less realistic. Things that we need mostly except for the Osim iSqueeze that i bought for myself. (hey it was for my own health benefits and it did help).

we do lots on monthly payment with 0% interest of course. Things like, air-con and oven. More to come. We still have to think for tv set, living room sets, tv console, dining table and bla bla bla.... hahhaha... more excruciating figure! nonetheless, i believe if everyone can make it wat make us any different right? ok la... thats all i have in mind, wanna watch Amazing Race and dream it is me racing!

A Piece of Story

2007-03-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

i typed something under this title but some how it disappeared. even though it is gone, after typing it, i felt a bit better. only Allah knows. maybe it was not meant to be viewed. i must be strong.
i am strong. thru thick and thin i'll make it thru for the sake of my family and for the most importantly my committments in life and vows i've taken almost 3 yrs ago.

Feeling down

2007-03-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

it's not that i m sad. but something is not right in my body... aching everywhere...
head spinning like mad. the back pain is the worst la eh. on top of the sinus... i think i kept blowing my nose till my head hurts. wont eb surprise if i blow my brains out! hahahah.... i really wanna get up and about again. y does this happen everytime i return from a trip?? yikes!
the trip to bangkok was really fulfilling for me. i hope everyone enjoyed the trip. or at least find some part of the trip enjoyable. hey.... we cant please everyone rite!
but jus spending the trip with the 3 boys really made it a whole lot better. i wish i have my own one day. *keep praying*

B.us M.rt W.alk Challenge 2007

2007-03-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

I tool part in the B.us M.rt W.alk Challenge 2007 organised by North West CDC and Republic Poly. It was a very very very tiring one. A whole day event and with 7 stations to go with just the use of bus, mrt and legs (thus the name of the challenge), it almost drained the 5 of us (4 Greenwood teachers and my dearest hubby). from RP we headed to Ngee Ann Poly, then to Yishun MRT followed by Woodlands Stadium, Turf Club, dreadful Bukit Timah Hill, IMM building and Chong Pang CC. We did all but the Chong Pang coz we didnt want to get disqualified. teams arrive after 3.30pm will be disqualified. We were leaving IMM at 2.45pm after factoring the travel time and challenge factor, we decided to keep it safe. We arrived at RP the end point, at 3 pm. the wonder is, there was a team that arrived at 2.30 pm. i wonder how they flew! Well we emerged the 17th team amongst the 50+ teams that raced. not bad eh! we got each a 2 men tent. But the bottom line is ALL IN THE GOOD NAME OF FUN! friendship made, communication built and fat buster session! have never took that many train and bus rides in a day in my whole entire life! (pampere June!) So wats next? Amazing Race Asia? Deal or No Deal? maybe me organising one Car Rally for school? hahhaha...

Berita Harian Buru Harta 07

2007-03-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

Well i tried to put it more photos but i think the system didnt allow it. Anyway it has been ages since i've blogged. Me and my family members took part in the Berita Harian Buru Harta on 10/3/07. it was really fun. A car rally to look for 'hidden treasures' at designated locations. how my navigation was tested and also my skills. some of which, i know now how to heck to catch worms from a pier! yucks!!! and people Jenal Jetty means, the Jetty is owned by a man named Jenal!!! arggghh! even CitySearch doesnt noe! Eating a piece of curry puff that is ultra spicy went breezy for me within 3 mins without any sip of water. It all went well. we didnt win but me and old man were brave enough to answer a challenge
that is to tell wat happened during the race.

with that we won $50 Courts voucher. not bad eh! to the winners well done! to those who didnt make it, it was all in the name of good and clean fun!

2007-01-20T13:08:00.000+08:00

The Cuppycake Video

Welcome to 2007

2007-01-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

WElCOME 2007!! I am still in AM session this year. teaching P1, P4 and of course the hectic P6. but my P6s are the better lot this year. hopefully they stand up to their reputation as much was said abt them being good. my P1s are lesser this yr only 22 of them. but i think i prefer the last year's batch better. they are more energetic. this dragon babies are not so dragonish... perhaps to early to tell. My P4s are going to be the challenging ones. they are the weaker lot. sigh... some cant pronounce their phonetics let alone even to read.
so... i m trying to face up to these challenges.
i hope i make this year a better one than last.

Resolutions
1 . take care of me health
2. do things on time and dont procrastrinate
3. be happy and happy and happy

back home but suffering

2006-12-21T11:58:00.000+08:00

hello ppl.. been a long long time i noe. i'm back from 2 wks hols but to make ppl's saying/mantra seems true i became ill! (June's always sick when she's back home) i was down with diarrhoea for 3 days immediately when i returned on sunday nite! sigh.... i didn't see the day in and day out. toilet bowl was my best buddy for 3 days straight. i almost went bonkers or i think i did. my poo hubby gotta take another day off to take care of me. on monday i was all alone at home. MIL left for short trip to Batam, hubby at work. so i all alone... tummy churning.. bowels turning.. i shall not continue. it was disgusting. i cant get myself outta bed. I HATE DIARRHOEA!
dunno how i got it though.. everyone else came home safe. does this mean i have to be abroad all the time?? hahahah... any job opening abroad??? hahahha

O-U-R O-W-N H-O-U-S-E!!!!

2006-11-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

all praises to Allah that we have finally brave ourself to own a house! give it up ppl.... *standing ovation* me and hubby just received the keys to our house this morning. though late for the appointment we made it.
then we made our way to the house of ours. hehehe... it's still a mess, i meant the area was still uder construction. they are still fixing and decorating the surroundings.
when we went in the house, hubby *azankan* our house (to bless and protect the house according to Islamic way) and we supplicate after reciting some prayers. we were really pleased. though small, IT IS OUR OWN HOUSE.
ok la... dats all for now. wanna play some sudoku... *our own house*

some what in the middle

2006-11-28T17:53:00.000+08:00

it has been a long long time. i couldnt get the raya, wedding and weekends photos up in here. i dunno why. i've burnt them into a CD. sorry guys.
this week is a start of my so called holiday. i'm done with things to do at work. well of course there are pending job like SEED and next yr's project. but all that aside i have to think happy.
i've finished the medication that my gynae gave me. supposedly i'm suppose to see RED by the 5th day after the medic (this friday it'll be). i cant wait!
i need to be happy. happy with meself so it'll project a more positive me. i wanna a positive aura to other ppl too. i really dont want to be a trouble to anyone. i jus wan to be happy and make other ppl happy. sometimes i forgot that in trying to do that some ppl dont think that i should even think of trying to do that. u noe wat i mean??
i think i should do things that make me happy. travelling.. swimming... dancing... cooking (even if no one compliments my food! ahaks!)
anyone got any tips of staying happy? or at least can be happy most of the time??
dats why i m some what in the middle, happy for this holiday, sad coz i dunno why i cant keep the happiness stay at least one day.

2 chichers n a che'gu get together

2006-11-02T11:20:00.000+08:00

finally we've got together during the Ramadhan (fasting) month. not easy yea... well we all has got commitments. but at times u jus got to put ur mind to it n jus go. it was during the last hectic week of the fasting mth, but we made it. even though we didnt really break fast together, but the hanging out, jokes, laughters n discussion is a great relieve.

wonders of technology

2006-11-02T11:10:00.000+08:00

hello hello... i've not blogged for a long time already. time time! anyway, been wanting to share this good news with everyone. no, it's not abt me. it's abt a very good fren of mine.
with the wonders of technology they've been able to look at their upcoming new family member after just 14 weeks! even though the gender cant be seen, as long as he/she is healthy that is important. so here is how he/she looks like after 14 weeks. it got me teared up looking at it from my handy. these thigns always get to my sappy side. ahaks! well pepz, this is how we might look like years, years, years ago! hahaha enjoyz!

suraida's and zaki's junior

2006-10-31T17:31:00.000+08:00

Lupin The 3rd Opening

Faveret Hero!!!

not feeling good

2006-10-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

over the weekend and esp today, i m feeling very tired. dunno y. maybe is the haze? maybe my migraine is coming back? maybe some other things? jus tired...
today did NOTHING at the PSLE mariking centre. it is the first day afterall. i m doin recording again this yr so as per norm there is "no business" for recorders on the first day.
i bet tom comes a bundle of papers to check.
i really hope that i will be in good health this week. there are a lot to do seh.
i am hoping to be able to bake some cakes for Eid and some cookies that hubby likes. but cake is my main priority.
promised mak that i will do the raya cooking on her behalf this yr. dunno if i ca make it or not but i think I MUST N I WILL. daging bakar... our favourite dish. not difficult mak said it is jus that the cooking hours are longer since we wanna make sure that the meat jus melts in your mouth n not some tough plastic! haahha... so wish good health ya!

congratulations to the ladies who are trying out recipes during this festive season. nothing is better to accomplish something challenging on your own! you have my support gals. dont give a hoot what ppl say, jus do it and believe in yourself! :)

MUACKS!! MUACKS!! MUACKS!!

AKU BINGIT!!!

2006-10-13T16:08:00.000+08:00

i hate working with people who has no brains.. main tangkap muat apa depan mata. takde otak nak fikir future. main suruh2 tak tau nak plan...
aku bingit.
aku bingit.
aku bingit!
aku dah baik nak volunteer lagi nak take advantage...... kira nasib baik bulan posa... kalo tak mmg dah kena maki!!!!!
aku dah penat... penat dgn orang macam nie.
bila cakap champion dan world. tapi bila buat.... orang lain punye glory dia amik dan angkat ladi dia punye!
F!%*!! F!%*!! F!%*!!

our Moroccan Fren

2006-10-13T15:28:00.000+08:00

a late post regarding my weekend ritual.
as per norm every wkn me n hubby will lepak (hangout) at my granny's at AMK. so last week a bit special since we brought along Rachid, our Moroccan fren to break fast with my family.
Had a l'il briefing b4 we reached there. i was worried that he'll be culture shock during the gathering. heheh.... my family very loud la. at times i felt that we are like the Greek or Italians... italianos also very loud, remember "My Greek Wedding"?? hehe
my family was more than welcome to have him joined us. we all sat on the floor.
i think Rachid has some difficulty adjusting to sitting on the floor. i wonder y, i think the Moroccans and Arabs frequent sitting on the floor for their meals rite? esp, during some festive seasons or family gathering. (anyone thought the same?)
well after we went to Geylang where Rachid jus by chance bought himself a carpet. he was intrigued by the auction that went on in front of Tanjong Katong Complex (TKC) n so he started bidding. even if i dont get to buy one for meself, at least i got to help him bid! ahaks!! good news was that ho bought it for $50. he beat the other 2 buyers who bought the same thing for $80! patience pays off!
we continued marching along geylang in search of a baju kurung and songkok for Rachid. in the end he bought a $30 songkok. macam ang moh wear songkok like dat ler...
cut story short, he likes the place and will return to do more shopping. he did say that the bazaar shud be permanently there... anyone second the idea? i tot i will be boring la if it's there 24-7, nothing to look for during Ramadhan plak...

2006-10-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

Siti Nurhaliza & Hazami - Sonata Musim Salju

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"It's now MY department"

2006-10-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

well people... now it's MY department. now please everyone pls call me M'am.
i wonder since when i m in charge for everything. It is simple to give the SAFEST answer--
I DON'T KNOW.
if everyone in the world say that, life will be in a...... DAZE! cant be u dont know anything!! it is easy to say "hey, wasnt it u who did that last yr?? sure u know what to do n whr are stuff.."
it's my second yr thr, n i m the genius (correct spelling??).
this is goiig to be a thrashing blog entry, seriously!
dont u think that if everyone carry and pull their own load, we'll all do fine. i dont want things to be merry and jolly 24-7, it's jus that time can be used more efficiently if things are planned and done accordingly. i know i m not perfect, but y shud i be e own scuffling and rummaging for stuff that PEOPLE need. ARRGHHHHHHH!!!! PISSED!!
i gave...no no no... the new gals and me practically burnt ourselves out to prepare for the real thang last yr! it was really challenging, but when come to others, y always the easy way put is the final option. easy doesnt mean the best. it can be complicated but with support n help fr all we can definitely pull it off.
i shud really stop this ranting. i've done something to 'solve' e prob. it's not diff, with l'il investigating and searching, i got the banner and got it put up. PROBLEM SOLVED!!
ok, getting it outta my chest felt better. thank u for at least reading this. thank u for listening.. :)

Lets Supplicate to Allah

2006-10-06T10:24:00.000+08:00

Well well, after 12.30pm today, it will mark my last worry for the PSLE. The malay paper is today and of course the science paper is the last one. but that is not my worry. i m not being selfish but i dont want to fret abt a paper dat i also hated as a kid!! ahaha..
the picture composition question sounded rather ok provided they write on wat the see from the pic. however not the same fate for the titled composition question sounded fatal. if they dont have the experience for it, then it spells GALLOWS!

keep your prayers coming people esp during this blessed month, i'm sure we together can make a strong unity, unite together and supplicate to ALLAH (please do not stop until 22 Oct when the marking of papers are over). this doa is not to wish the kids all the best. they've done it already, so no use for dat. it is to blow the "good, forgiving and generous charm" into the spirit and the souls of the fellow MARKERS.

put ur hands together and join me people:
"Dear Allah, please bless all the PSLE markers to be in the best condition in all sense of the word. May they be in the best of health, mood, right track of mind and sense of forgiveness. May Allah let them view the best outta the kids papers. Insya Allah, Amin Ya Rabbala'lamin."

*Junzie in peace n serenity mood*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST SISTA!!

2006-10-05T12:51:00.000+08:00

A loud shout out to my lovely sista, Adah!
Give it up people, it's her birthday!!
And on her big Day my sis has taken some time off work to...... SLEEP!! MUAHAHAHHA...
Understandable la, because she's the most busiest woman in the office. hehe..
Nonetheless, she had and will be having the best birthday pressie ever anyone can give her. no it's not blank cheque (though it will help her very much! hehe :)
She has got a seat on board JAL with her name on it! yes yes ppl, Land of The Rising Sun, her comes Non-Royal Princess Adah. ahaks!
cool!! jus thinking of her going make me very excited (as for all the trips that anyone go to!)
so i wish her the very best time in the world (fun without moi cant be the very best ;P)

Come back in one piece and jus buy things for yourself. dont wan u to come home n eat 'air' and drink NeWater from La Tap everyday.

love ya lots! thru thick n thin we are and will always be sistas!

The start of PSLE

2006-10-04T10:53:00.000+08:00

today marks the start of the Primary School Leaving Examination (PSLE @ singapore's junior sch's major national exam) slept early last nite. had to get ready for the extended tossing and turning rituals before sleep due to the 'anticipation' for today's papers.

well it's not malay paper but it is enough to bring jitters and anxiety to my not-so-good-mood body. it's not as if my child is going thru it. after the 2 yrs of teaching and bonding (hopefully there is some hehehehe) u cant fight the feeling.

i rang my cuz who is going tosit for the paper early this morning. gave him some last minute advice and wished him all the very best of luck. i can sense the nervous in him but his cool. he's a sweet boy!

at sch i, went around to check the attendance of my own p6 kids. looked out for the frequent MIA cases. Thank God all checked! being present is one thing, being THERE is another; meaning realising what and knowing how to do the paper is totally another worry.

all i pray is for them to be calm and take the papers seriously. May God bless them.. ALL OF THEM. (insya Allah)

FORGETs n MUST REMEMBERs

2006-10-03T11:14:00.000+08:00

I am sad. I am mad. i didnt choose to be in this situation.

everyone wants a better life. a complete life. a wholesome life. we want out path of life to be brighten and fulfilled with everything. we yearn for the very thing that we aim in life.

but most of the times we FORGET that no one is perfect. We FORGET that it is not up to us to predict or to equate what is goin to happen. We FORGET we are in no authority or position to comment one's life with our own judgements. We FORGET that judgements and unwelcomed comments are uncalled for and will be asked when ever it is ever needed. We FORGET that criticism can hurt others.

We MUST REMEMBER that life should build with faith in God n love. We MUST REMEMBER to take things one step at a time. We MUST REMEMBER to compliment one another on little things which is jus a practice for the bigger stuff. We MUST REMEMBER to be kind. We MUST REMEMBER to make life simpler and tolerable for one another.

I am sad. I am mad. i didnt choose to be in this situation.
Allah Bless my life.
Allah Bless your life.
Allah Bless our life.
Insya Allah.

2006-09-24T15:35:00.000+08:00

as per normal, my saturday ritual, we went to my granny's place. and the best thing is. all my uncles and aunties are there. for the simple fact that Ramadhan is nearing. but but the highlight of the day must be THE WELCOMING OF BABY MD ZAQY BIN JAMARI. his first visit to his granny's!
we were super excited. he's so tiny...all wrapped up when he came in the pram. i was disappointed coz he didnt come in the carrier that i've given. hmmm.. but i noe he's still too young for it. he's so very cute.
all this made my biological clock tick even faster. shall not go on further. :(
on a happier note here is my new baby born cuz!

THANK YOU ABANG

2006-09-20T19:38:00.000+08:00

My dearest hubby... he has gone all out to make me feel better. he's such a darling. i've been wanting to have sushi so today he 'forced' me outta bed and we went to have sushi at JB. actually i dont really have the appetite for sushi coz felt weak. hate to go mute for 2 days. sound like a grumpy man la me!
however when we reached the restaurant i managed to have some sushi. i ate all those cooked and fried ones first. i wanted so much to have th fish roe but i guess i wont want to be sick at my tummy next. so i gave that a miss. i ate lotsa ebi (prawns) delicious! had only 6 plates. i think it's nothing compared to the almost 20 plates i had at KL last holiday. hehehe..
then hubby wanted to bring me to Kenny Rogers. i think he tot that i have not eaten enuf. but i declined. so tired and the tot of pending work make me jus wanna go home.
all in all, jus wanna thank my Sayang for the effort. LOVE YA!

Lost Voice

2006-09-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

Tuesday n Wednesday were the days where i think my kids or ppl who hate my voice will thank god. hahah.. yes i lost my voice. i have no idea wat i had. i've laid off the fizzy drinks for 3 wks now. dont really noe wat hit me. doc said i had an infection. from wat???? sigh.. so i was on MC.. yet again. sigh....
anyhow, jus had my vocal chords rest.. hahaha... stayed home and been thinking a lot. i watched Oprah n decided to review my mthly expenses. wow... who knows that i m overspending.. not that i cant afford or can afford stuff. it is more on whether i need it or i want it. we all noe these phrases but never get to get cranking on it.
i should i really should... i shall not say wat i will do until i've done it, better still SUCCESSFULLY done it.
alright, to those who are unwell, take care of your health. nothing is worse than to not be able to enjoy a day n stay in bed. take care mates... peace!

BABY BOOM NEXT YEAR!

2006-09-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

I DEDICATE THIS BLOG TO MY BEST FREN : SURAIDA M!
CONGRATULATIONS GIRL!!! i pray for the best 9 months to come!! i m simply exhilarated for u! when i heard the news my toes wriggle like crazy outta happiness... it is so great!
i cant wait for the baby boom next yr! 2 best buddies gonna have an edition to their family and another fren of mine too. wow... God, do hear my prayers too ya... love ya guys!

pre-raya preparation

2006-09-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

today i helped my sisters to clean my mum place at sengkang. it started at 1pm and ended at 6pm. it was very productive coz my hubby also helped out. I LOVE U SAYANG! thank u for helping out too. every thing in the storeroom is at their proper place. i have a shelf for dad. a shelf for mum. a shelf for outdoor. a shelf for weddings or parties. even a shelf FOR MY FUTURE HOUSE! hahahha...
so tired.. i think it is a good idea to clean up before Ramadhan comes. u can drink while cleaning.
i love cleaning the storeroom. it's challenging. and i can orgainse all the stuff according to my way.. dats why even on my wedding day they had to ask me where the heck certain things are. i think i should do the map. dont u think?? a lagend. hahaha... i dont like to clean my mum's kitchen. she refuse to throw stuff la... u must throw things when u buy new things. dont buy buy buy n keep keep keep. like dat become karung guni la.. my mum buys frying pans jus like i buy shoes... plenty!
so what is the most dread place to clean up for u?? share la share

phobia??

2006-09-13T17:51:00.000+08:00

last night we got back our car. yes yes.. our car was admitted to the hospital on Monday. pretty fast huh for a semi major fix up. knock-knock here, spray-spray there, change-change this and throw-throw that has made our car looking like it was before. in fact jus like brand new if i may say so. i was astonished by the results. it was like a make over done so right. u wont know wat has hit the car now.. heheh...
yes yes.. i was the culprit. i was the blind bat. i was the dunno-wat-else-to-do-with-my-$600-so-i-drove-into-the-pillar person who caused all this. people said that if u send the car to the normal workshops it'll not be a good job.....BIG BULL. when u need a fixing, u return to the agent, yes it sounds right. but u are jus going into a big boutique for the car. like u are going to a fancy restaurant to have a plate of nasi lemak when u can also go to the pasar for the same plate at a cheaper price!! u are jus paying for their services. the parts are the same! so why go back to agent??? unless u are SITI NURHALIZA of singapore, ok then. as long i get the car fix at my budget, i dont give a hoot where it is done. so screw agents!

i still can feel the jitters and nerves running down my spine when i sit at the driver's seat. it is tough! i hope one day i will overcome this fears...

This august and early september has been my BIGGEST SPENDING MONTH. that have not put into account the coming hari raya month. actually it is not the clothing it is more of the money u are giving or have to give to the kiddos. sigh... need to do calculations..

so lesson of the day (1) vigilant and careful driving
(2) at times having small family pays off.....hahaha

a practice to motherhood??

2006-09-10T10:52:00.000+08:00

last of the mohicans to the holiday period. went to Sentosa with Ayu and Sarah. At the same time we've brought along the kiddos. i brought my ever so loving boys; Hazim, Irfan and Wafy. i love them yes yes.. Sarah in turn brought her girls (cuz also) Hana (the wafy alike) and Haidah (the bubbly one). And Ayu who initially wanted to bring her bro a 10 yr old, in the end came solo and of course became our mother assistance. hehehe... aka Amah. hahahhaha
it started with a ride on public transport. will blog why i dont drive next time. :(
so took the NEL, good old NEL went to Harbourfront, simple simple ride. of course early morning eerybody smell nice and fresh i bet it differ from the afternoon ride that i'll have to take later.
so met Sarah on the ride, she's punctual (worries me at the first place coz i always late) but i wasnt this time. bought mayo and drinks and also kids sandcastle making materials. we took the cable car as a perk oto the kids. (ayu is afraid of heights!) kids love em..
after the long waited tram rides, we reached Palawan Beach. got a good shady spot and laid down the mat for 10 hahahha... free mats from Manja and Bossini.
Cikgu Ayu had a crash course from Chef June to make the ever so simple chicken sandwich. cut some fruits and prepare for the hungry Sarah eh... kids to eat brunch.

they swam, they soak and hike. swam the shore (no actual swimmin, dangerous for new mothers with suddenly 3 boys) soak by the shore, and hike the southern most point of the beach. nice view. took photos of the injured Hana, giants and elf also the patriotic Haidah "Happy Birthday Singapore".... cute giler la dia.

after the long soakin in the basking sun, we showered the kids, a challenge to Sarah, hahaha
then off to take the Sky Tower. not cheap ok for a few minutes ride. but very skenic eh scenic ride. like tourist like dat... Ayu watched over Haidah, little angel slept n missed the ride. waste money to bring her when she was in dreamland. betul la Ayu jadi Amah.. hahahha. At first looked like a distorted mum trying to handle carry the so called heavy Haidah... keshian Sarah. dua kali kena budak tertido.. tu lah bring little tots must think of all the possible happenings. luckily i brought first aid, Hana had a cut coz of a fall. i brought soap for the kids' shower... next time u'll Ace the course k Sarah!

oh ya... forgot to mention, wafy pooped in his pants. guessed there is no one 'suitable' for him to tell coz i was showering. sigh... kalo tak muntah, berak plak! (if he doesnt throw up he pooped!)

ride back with cable car all the way to mount faber then back to harbourfront (why waste the expensive ride right??) then we fed the kids with Breeks... so much we ate.. my boys ordered themselves a plate of their own... of course i had their leftovers..

The ride back wasnt bad, to keep them busy i let them do their assessment books.. wafy slept...
all went dandy. went back to Sengkang.. and kids played Playstation while waiting for their folks.

i will want to do it again... hopefully Ayu and Sarah tak serik... hehehe

Teachers' Day Dinner @ Orchid Country Club

2006-09-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

Right view

Left view

J Lo and Ms Ayu

J Lo and Eminem

It was supposedly to be a Bling Bling nite. When the SWC members explained what it was like to be Bling Bling, i tot that it was like a hip hop kindda thing. but i was wrong apparently. It was more of HK hip hop... i dare not comment much. i missed the lucky draw. initially i got green 133 but i changed it for cream 54, and yes yes green 133 was one of the lucky numbers. it was a day previleged at Grassroots club... sigh. but anyways it was rather ok nite. the music cud have been more hip though. lousy choice of music. and the decor too.. the game was only one. was same oold same old game. the drama put up by the SWC was quite good. overall i enjoyed dressing up the most. it was really cool! for me at least. i always love to go with the theme. it is more exciting. spent a tad much on the outfit but i guess they are stuff that i can use again. even the jacket... so here are the photos...

PS : Thank You to Ms Ayu who helped me out tying the ever so complicated flower outta my scarf. she also did my beautiful simple make up.... i will never have left the dressing room if not for her help. thanks babe!

a lovely almost romantic Saturday Nite

2006-09-07T16:20:00.000+08:00

Class 95 had this movie @ the Padang one Saturday nite i couldnt remember when was it. So we decided to give it a go. 2 movies were shown on that nite; MI3 and X-Men (the latest one). we decided to only go for Mr Cruise's movie. love that gorgeous hunk.
So i quickly took our our trusty cooler, grabbed some fruits; bananas and strawberries; Sprite (white wine look alike), wine glasses, mineral water (real thirst quencher) napkins and dessert bowls all into the cooler bag. we bought a baguette of Garlic bread and Ben & Jerry's. yummy... we watched and wine and dine at the same time. it was jus lovely... i cut the fresh fruits and dumped it into a bowl together with Ben & Jerry's. lovely... under the stars on the mat... with wine glass (ya ya only)... it was jus lovely. hope to do it again. here are the pics.
GO CLASS 95!!!

high tea pics

2006-09-07T15:51:00.000+08:00

alright that is me on the far left followed Fadilah and Sarah in the blue scarf. The one with the black n yellow top is newbie Noraini and seated next to the teacher in yellow scarf @ Fadiah is Ayu and the one with blue shirt is Mahfoza. and the frantic lady at the back is non other than our organiser Ms Siti Aisha

once again standing from left is Noraini and preggie lady Wan. seated from left is beautiful mother of boys Mdm Sarimah. then fresh NIE student Iskandar followed by Mr Fahmmy

(he's kindda cute i think) and Mdm Mashita

ok... in this last photo, not yet mentioned teachers are all seated; on the left in pink scarf is Mdm Haslinda, with glasses in blue top is Cikgu Matufa's daughter and next to her is of course cikgu herself. once again seated on the left with blue scarf is Ms Siti Aisha our organiser.. hehe...

during my hubby's holiday

2006-08-19T17:02:00.000+08:00

i had such great fun during my hubbys 5 day trip at Clementi Camp. i knew i was going to make the best outta it. i wouldnt want to be sad and lonely. so i contacted all my gal frens married and single.. asked them if they want to keep m company at least during the day la. so we did. these was the schedule.

Monday - look for Trs day suit and Ayu's guest book with Ayu herself
Tuesday - look for Trs day suit and dinner with Ida & RISK game with sistas
Wednesday - look for Trs day suit, buy shoes and Ayu's guest book with Ayu and Sarah
Thursday - look for Trs day suit (if there is time) and long long late lunch with Ikin
Friday - High Tea with the Muslim teachers at Cafe Vienna n fetch hubby from Camp

all nicely fell into places. had tonnes of fun. like i can feel the freedom.. like once i had when i was single. not that i regret being married it's jus that i realise that we might need a break from married life. hubby always get to do that but for me.. if he's around i rather spend time with hubby than anyone else. he makes me happy! though it helps spending time with girls. hahaha.. GIRLS RULE!!
ONLY AT NIGHT I HATE IT VERY MUCH. i got very lonely. hate to sleep alone. so tend to go home and feel all tired and restless so i went straight to bed without thinking much. build a heap of pillow next to me.. so feels like someone is there.. hehehe..

so here are some of the photos of the high tea with the che'gus and chichers..

2006-08-19T16:46:00.000+08:00

Samsons - Kenangan Terindah

Song of the Moment

before and after hubby's holiday @ Clementi Camp

2006-08-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

before hubby go for reservist
the day before my hubby went for is resrvist @ '5 days holiday' at Clementi Camp, we had a fantabulous time! we started jus nice for lunch at Zing Do Restaurant over at J. East entertainment centre. so delicious. i remember dining at Zing Do's Takashimaya that is connected to Breeks. very the not nice but then this one is different. i was glad we gave it another chance. we decided to go after watching its promos on Suria Segar. i had noodles and hubby had rice in the hot pot.. yummy! price is average range.. so it's fine. this one i give 3.5 stars. must try the noodles to those who like spicy. must try for those who wanna try kimchis. not bad really..

we went window shopping in town. very nice... walk walk... bought some books. parked somewhere and walked from meridien hotel to plaza sing. we managed to catch the Change Of Guard ceremony (COG). so kewl! so synchronise and precise movements... any of u that have not seen it.. go ok.. i think they have it on the last sunday of every month.

when hubby was away
yes i missed my hubby when he was away. i HATE TO SLEEP ONE PERSON. army stupid... shud let married personnel go home. tom also can report again wat. not as if they are going to train at night. now he's home sleeping. sigh... tot can make some fireworks... kwuakwuakwua..

pics of me n hubby enjoying the meal y'all!

National Day late posting

2006-08-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

ok... this is a late posting but i really jus wanna share the lovely and spectacular fireworks. well went twice and enjoyed it. first watched the USA display and then the one from France.

so now here i am with the photos from the France team. so to those of u who missed here goes....

A day with my Darlings

2006-08-15T13:41:00.000+08:00

This is a late posting but i feel that i need to put it in. Last Thursday (10/8) i went out with my Darlings (hazim, Irfan and Wafy). initially it meant to be jus the four of us but then it became a family affair. since Adah was on MC and my aunt took half day, i might as well include the old folks. we started off with breakfast at Thomson eating prata. not bad very soft and nice but i think the size is too small. for 70cents maybe it is ok.. i think any jack up in price will be unacceptable.

then we took a drive at Pierce and Seletar reservoir jus to look at MONKEYS. so cute yet dangerous they can be. although we cant feed them.. but wat the heck we did! hahahaha...
we fed them some knick knacks. my darlings jus love em. so excited looking at the monkeys..
then we head to town to Esplanade. it was sunny and bright. took lotsa photos and ate at 2Hot Halal Cafe. if u planning to go there, the food rating is moderate AND EXPENSIVE!

after that we went to SINGAPORE BOTANICAL GARDENS. hubby said that there are swans
for us to feed. with semangat berkobar-kobar (full enthusiasm) we went there and trek the botanical gardens. jus to find 3 pathetic swans that are not hungry at all! they cant be bothered with our presence. as though we walked all the way there for nothing. they look like they are in the we-are-waiting-for-our-turn-to-return-to-God-so-why-are-u-here kindda mood. sigh...

before we end our day we had a delicious and sumptous dinner at Swensen's. yummy!!! GO BAKED RICE CHICKEN! i strongly recommend the Ceasar's salad to anyone who think why eat salad at a restaurants. i think it is worth it. light, crunchy and healthy. now my mouth is watering already! my darlings wanted a normal kind of meal for adults. kids meal does not satisfy their hunger.. sikit (little) they said. and they ordered a burger and fish n chips. only the budak itam (black boy, Wafiy) had the kiddies meal. hahaha..

will add the pics soon.

HAPPY 41st NATIONAL DAY SINGAPURA!

2006-08-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

i m watchin the NDP celebration at padang now. yes i did say before that i wont want to watch the NDP for the NE show again... but i think on second thought, i wont mind though. well it is the last celebration they are going to have at the Kallang Stadium. it does shed a tear from me. sad rite... but i think this is necessary to make the stadium look if not all at least half of how grand and modern and elaborated the stadiums around the world are! try Stade de France.. wow!

today i washed the toilet.. nothing interesting u say??? I BEG UR PARDON! have u ever cleaned a toilet jus by using a tiny i think a 4cm by 4cm by 4cm sized sponge??? i tell ya... if u are a must-clean-every-nooks-and-corners kindda person like me... MUST BUY THIS SPONGE! one time use per one time cleaning mission. very very very good and efficient. cleaned everything!!
the grim and grime and gremlins are gone!! phew! stains too.. dunno wat is on that bugger but it works dat is all i care! i think it is another of our dear old land of the Oishis inventions. but i m glad i bought them. still have 3 left.

MY BIOLOGICAL CLOCK IS TICKING FRANTICALLY! ahhahahah.. jus wanna say that one out loud.

my hubby jus mentioned dat what if next yr GWPS selected to perform for the NDP.. NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! so much work and commitment for that kind of event ok. hopefully it'll not happen.

alright such a lenghty post. nothing much to write exactly. jus typed wat is currently happening in my life today. ciaoz...

finally the week's over

2006-07-24T19:09:00.000+08:00

it's finally over! the malay department won champion for both AM and PM session for the drama competition in conjuction with the Racial Harmony Day celebration. yipppeeee!!! we deserve it.. every single bit of it! i love it!!! i promised to treat the kids for their great effort... very very committed bunch...
and during the Peraduan Bahasa on saturday done by the malay department.. my p4 won the storytelling creatively competition and my p6 boy won the cakap petah (dunno wat in english).
i think something like toastmasters. although they won bronze nonetheless... the effort put into it is incredible. very tiring...
on a sad note, my p1s that i trained to sing Di Tanjong Katong didnt make it... very very sad. they trained hard.. it's all my fault they lost. the song was played from the laptop. it has always worked but sadly, the music didnt come thru that morning... bummer. but i know they've done well. and wud have won if the song did well. well... always next yr!
after the hectic week.. i FELL SICK. i hope i can keep my health well coz the prelims and PSLE are nearing... sigh... take care

cute video

2006-07-24T17:19:00.000+08:00

cute girl singing Anuar Zain song

she's so cute.. jus look at her facial expression.. like she knows the song when she's born..

coming to an end

2006-07-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

jus a short note. tomorrow is Racial Harmony Day cum Mother Tongue Fortnight Month grand finale tomorrow! i m so very nervous and worried for the kids. i really do pray that the plan goes well as planned. such plenty of efforts put in by the teachers... especially the cikgu-cikgus... to a name Cikgu Ayu, Cikgu Fadiah, Cikgu Fadilah, Cikgu Mahfoza, Cikgu Iskandar dan Ms Sarah who have really went the extra mile for the preparation of this event. Fadiah, kudos to ya who really juggled between malay dance and also the drama. i wonder i wonder.... how u did that. but i think all of us have our duties to be carried out. so i wish all the mother tongue department the very best. can i jus say may the best team wins?? hahahhaha.... GO MELAYU!!! ehem!

a story

2006-07-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sandy,
Who is Sandy?
Sandy has lots of dreams.
She always planning in her life.
She's not complicated.
She has targets in life.
She feels that life is precious and to live it to the fullest.
However at the same time she loves to jus let things happen naturally.
And some things in life Sandy didn't plan happened.
of course they happen for the better.

What Sandy likes?
She likes to mingle with people.
She likes to make friends.
She likes exchanging views with others and talk about whatever that is within her knowledge.
That is why Sandy told me that, at times she finds it difficult when a group of people are laughing about some joke that one she doesn't understand.
*I would also feel uneasy, wouldn't you?*
Sandy loves surprises.
She loves planning surprises for other people.
Sandy feels that the look on the person's face when receiving the surprise is priceless.
All the surprises that Sandy does, well planned and thought off.
Sandy feels all that are well worth.
Sandy do hope one day there will be a surprise for her.. a good surprise.
*Maybe I'll surprise Sandy... good idea?*

What Sandy hates?
Sandy hates confuse people.
Sandy feels that she doesn't need anymore confusion in her life.
That is why Sandy always tackle the problems that she face first.
After solving the prob then will she bitch about it.
Sandy hates being forgetful.
Her mind fails her all the time.
I pity her.
At times her minds just can't remember at the most crucial time.

Last words Sandy?
Sandy prays God listens to her prayers.
Sandy wishes she'll get a surprise.
Sandy wishes she'll do good at work.
Sandy wishes her happiness will last.
Sandy wishes her..... she wishes... that one wish... only God knows.

some 28 list

2006-07-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

24 so-the-not-interesting facts/things/habits about myself: (not in any particular order)

(1) i love to eat very much; i am always game to try any kind of food, Halal it has to be of course

(2) I have 2 sisters. yes they are irritatin. yes they are at times cranky but they are precious to me and i'll do anything for them.

3) I HATE soap operas! once had a room mate who LOVES Days of Our Lives. anyone like it too?? plsss.... D grade sex movie la that one!

(4) I love to watch channel 69 and 70 on cable. Asian Food Channel and Home n Health.

(5) I have a teddy bear which is almost 8 mths old that i bring when i travel. it seems that i must sleep with it if not cannot sleep. this is a not good habit june! It's name is Bubu

(6) I've grown from size 10 to 12!!! and at times it hit 14!!! MAYDAY! That's why i took up kickboxing.

(7) i HATE pink will always do. love green,blue and purple.

(8) I love shoes and i buy them even if i know i wont wear them or they dont have my size.. hahah. anyway i have 2 pairs for sale. it's white and the other black.. very chic will bring em to sch for sale.. cheap cheap!

(9) I wore tudung in 1998, in fact 1st of Jan 1998. That is after i told myself no harm putting it on. since then i m being judge differently. heck ppl going to judge u no matter what u do!

(10) My mum has been sewing my baju kurung for many many many rayas and also graduation! only she can make me look perfect in my baju. I LOVE YA MAK!

(11) i use to have tonnes... by means tonnes of magazines about hairstyles when i was in sec sch. then i sell em away at $1 a piece coz no more space. it was a very good sale

(12) i am a cry baby. hard truth! i may look this macho and strong and garang outside, but with sappy movies or watever to do with love, kids, life and death... sob sob sob...

(13) I drove at 120km/hr sometimes on the way to sch... sorry sayang.. but i did focus on the road.

(15) I finally went to Europe although didnt backpack but got to go to Paris. and put my french into shaky and bumpy practice.

(16) During my Europe trip i learnt to curl, twirl, tie and twist the shawl-made-scarf to be so stylish.. but not overdoing it. I think it's appropriate for cold weather but sunny island, u will sweat in that shawl! not anti-perspirant ya noe.

(17) i date one person b4 i met my hubby. he's my bad mistake BUT a learning journey for me.

(18) I still have my aunt's b'day present to me when i was 10 yr old. It this precious keepers. and it's buddy and it's comb and it's special key. it's pink! but i love it.. this exceptional.

(19) I love chocolates, my roomie every finish the entire family bar jus the two of us.... never underestimate slim and petite ppl like my roomie.. hahahha

(20) I never plan to be a teacher, it jus happen. i feel i need to help these Malay kids. wah so patriotic? but dats the truth

(21) I met my hubby thru a poly fren. chatted online. first date at this starbucks cafe at river valley. first personal chauffering started at Jalan Kilang Barat where Panasonic service centre is..

(22) I actually have met my hubby at a fren's place b4 the date but didnt notice him. noticed his buddy instead. now the buddy is engaged to my fren introduced by me. kuakuakua.. life!

(23) before teaching, i hv done couple of jobs. work as new books sorter at Toa Payoh Library. Relief at Mayflower Sec teaching Sec 1 express, normal and normal techincal, same for sec 2 and for 3 jus the normal tech. not easy... but they are a fun and CHALLENGING bunch. data clerk entry at KKWCH jus before it shifted to its new site. Also clerk at Japan Travel Bureau... boring!

(24) my ultimate dream..... something to do with food...

(25) my favourite place in singapore is Changi Airport... always wanna fly off to somewhere..

(26) i still have my secondary sch uniform... hey very kinky u noe...

(27) i love my cousins.. MD HAZIM, MD IRFAN AND ABD WAFIY. i love them to bits and if i dont have any of my own.. i splurge it on them.

(28) i used to have a crush during my polytechnic year.. it lasted for abt 3 yrs in poly and continued for 2 years after poly life... his smile was the killer! hahaha

alright... lets share... i did 28 coz i am 28. anyways... do at least 15... it's fun. i mean we think of the small things... present or past... it's part of us.

ppl i hope will do this :
My sisters!!
My very busy busy cousin Hafiza
My roomie
last but not least my hubby---- NOT hahahha (do it for me??)

I added photos of my mates tiny hunks, Md Hyder and Aqil Aufa.

still counting

2006-07-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

well as i've mentioned before, i've been faithfully recording my temp. i dunno if it's correctly taken, i do hope so. these past few days it has been very regular temp of 35.9. it has been 3 days of the same temp. is it normal?? can anyone recommend a gynae to me? i think i have to go have a check-up. a colleague recommended traditional massage. would it work? like i m totally clueless of wat is right wat is wrong. my colleague at work is preggie, one of my best mates is having 2nd preggie, most who married earlier than moi already preggie. wats wrong with me?? wats wrong? if i get preggie i will throw a big bash!! i think u guys gonna listem to more preggie wallows...
oh before i end, at work... things are gonna be very tight. sometimes even if u are doing ur work faithfully, sure something not rite to others. i m really sorry if i hurt anyone in the process of my work. like wat some orang atasan said (higher ppl), ask if u are in doubt. but i wasnt in doubt!! the work are tiny weeny... how to ask anyone to do it? nanti ppl say we making big fuss over small matter!!!!!!!!!
i m officially piss.. sorry pepz. nitez

waiting for D-Day

2006-07-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

well it's the 2nd week of sch. today is a good day. managed to do SOME work.. hahaha.. i think i m still in the holiday mood. :S
work is coming into place but at a slower pace. i want to do so much but my body is jus not co-operating. focus june focus.... u gotta slog for like another 3 or 4 months or so... then exams...

i'm having my the-time-of-the-month now.. n doing some calculating. my gfs told me that i should take my temp the first thing in the morn when i wake up. on the 12th day aft my time-of-the-month first started my temp supposedly to be higher than normal. it'll continue for a couple of days after. and those are the days when i m suppose to be most fertile. so i m suppose to get it all cracking with the hubby of mine... huney.... we gotta work it soon!! ahhahah...(is it true??) so i m trying my very best.
wish me the very best ok... pray i will be bless with ........ insya Allah..

goodbye tiny island!

2006-06-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

less than 24 hrs i am goin off to Europe!! bye bye!! yesterday i went out with my 3 lovely boys. so love them. my aunt treated us dinner. i love the baked chicken rice. so here is the most candid shot taken. i really do pray that i am going to have the best time of my life in europe. u guys also pray ok... maybe ... jus maybe Allah will finally bless me with ...... :) insya Allah.
now i am going to post lots of photos... if i got the time i will blog again. how much ah the internet over there?? heheh... take care guys!

a few more days to Europe trip!!

2006-06-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

another 3 more days i'm leaving this tiny island.... sigh.... i'm gonna be so sad.. NOT! hehehe.
I'm really looking forward to this trip. it has always been my dream to backpack europe. it might not be the full backpack, but hey.. better this than nothing rite?
the most important thing is i m doing it together with my Sayang. i dare say i might not have the chance to do these stuff if i never marry him. not becoz i cant afford... more like no one to go with! hahahah... most frens married with kids wat. alright! i really hope my roomie is feeling better.. i hope my work is going to be settled tomorrow.. or at least 80% of it. like no mood to work already la.. ok, gonna do some packing now.
i wonder why not many leave any comments.. i must be pretty boring.. hahhahah... anything la. nite nite...

jus specially for you

2006-05-31T21:16:00.000+08:00

I jus watched Uptown Girls for dunno how many times already. i really love Brittany Murphy. Dakota Fanning is also very very talented. she really made me moved to tears and britany made me laugh my heads off.... both are simply lovely. so here are the photos roomie... do cheer up yah!

Gerlz day out

2006-05-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

it was a wonderful time yesterday with my Girlfren Suraida! so best! we both went out to get groceries and ingredients for dinner. then we went over to her place and started cooking up a storm. well a tiny storm if u may. hahahah!
we did this delicieux beef kebabs... the skewered ones not bread ones. we skewed together with peppers and onions. we intended to throw in some pineapples but forgot to buy it. but alls ends well. we grilled it over the stove. i think i will get meself a grill pan when i have my own place. with that $6 worth of beef we managed to get a dozen kebab. yumm... simple soft, tender, juicy and sedap.
we also did a simple yet tasty spaggheti meatballs and a big bowl of fool-proof salad. well jus olive oil, lemon, salt n pepper. simple simple and basic stuff. then of course we enjoyed it jus the two of us. the time and the chat and the laughter we had jus picking up where we last left.... is simply divine. sometimes some time off to be wth ur frens during ur married life is very much needed.
i enjoyed myself. i thank my wonderful hubby for letting me spend time with my fren. for being understanding too... thank you very much sayang!

but one the way back home last nite, i wonder whether my frens gonna be free to accompany me when I am all alone???

will post the pictures later tonight....take care y'all.

shared for my roomie

2006-05-24T17:52:00.001+08:00

I AM: not contented with work

I WANT: to travel the world!!!

I WISH: Allah will bless my family with a new member

I MISS: hostel life

I FEAR: losing my my mum and hubby

I HEAR: only what i choose to listen to.

I WONDER: how it's like to be pregnant and mum

I REGRET: not let nature take it's course during my honeymoon.

I AM NOT: going to let anyone bring me down

I DANCE: the ehh-ehh dance for my hubby

I SING: ALL THE TIME!

I CRY: when I'm emotional.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: focused

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: rather awesome cheesecake

I WRITE: emails to people when i can say it to them.

I NEED: blessings from God and sanity

I START: a problem??

I FINISH: solving that problem.

PS: Want to share with me your list?

i'm back

2006-05-24T15:01:00.000+08:00

Hello... i've send my work review. i've send the books for checking. i hate checking of books. i understand they wanna monitor if we are doing our work and children are learning. i hope they are satisfied with what i have done. but again... who will ever be satisfied. human are human la eh... many many things are going thru my mind. sometimes i wonder what makes me happy. i feel like my each day has nothing special. some say do things that will make me happy.
i like to talk. share experience. but at times i dunno who i can talk to without making the person bored. nice to jus talk.. walk.. talk... shop.. eat... but the most is travelling. i wish one day i can travel and travel n travel. but one thing that is bugging me... is that noe thing that one Allah can solve..
maybe one day..when He is willing and know that i am ready, He'll give him/her to me... maybe, the more we want it the harder it gets??? i dunno... i dunno.

not feeling too good

2006-05-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

as the title has said, not feeling too good ah me. every morning i drag myself to work. i think most probably becoz the end of semester bug has infected me. well, i must keep pushin myself.
i plan to get the practice paper for the p6s ready for use for the last week of sch and also the remedials during the 1st wk of hols. BUT BUT BUT.... if those shared papers hv been vetted it's CRAP N BULL! it's so tiring to go thru it again n again. though they gave us so many practice papers how can i print and give the kids something that is rubbish!
sigh..... i will put my mind to it and vet it and edit it again.
oh n i hope the kids do well during the school function this Friday nite. Pls la.... u guys need to cheer... so SCREAM ur heart out! but cant blame them. they've been doing it over n over again. i bet they are sick n tired of it. i know i m. hahahha... k wanna sleep now.. tatas!

what's happening?

2006-05-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

What's happening to the kids nowadays? i'm telling ya that it's either the folks who r jus not doin the job well or the kids r simple brats! one of the brats made my colleague broke down n cry. it hurts so much looking at her. she's such a wonderful, soft-spoken and courteous girl. to see her broke down like that due to the brats is jus heart breaking. it also made me fuming mad!! how much i wanted to jus grabbed the brat by his collar n shove him agst the wall.. he needs a good trashing. he think he can jus get off like dat?? man man..... he certainly doesnt know who his teacher's frens are, especially the one sitting closest to her *evil laughter* i hope he gets what he deserves for.
oh on a happier and lighter note, my youngest sister decided wats good for her already. she's decided to put on her hijab (tudung). hey you gotta start at some point. some ppl now n some later, whatever it is, my word to all is give it a go. make up your mind n do it. It's not difficult, it's a start that eventually will bring u close to Allah. IF you bring urself closer to Him that is. the difficult part is the inner u that u must cleanse. even for me.... it gets tougher each day. faith in Allah will make each day better regardless what shit (pardon my french) happened.
Peace y'all!

have faith in Allah

2006-05-11T15:42:00.000+08:00

i believe that Allah always will test us with challenges that He knows that we can take it. God will not trouble and see His people in pain. He will always be there for us. sometimes when things get rough and tough we must jus brace ourself. be strong and keep in mind that there are always others who are worse than us.
we have to keep out nose and to ourself. take things with a pinch of salt. if our bosses ask to do something do it as long it doesn't affect out religion. the rest of it... can go to Heck! i'm very sad today. they are jus picking on things.. mere things. so june.. be brave. stand tall.. work june work. work till u work drive u crazy. if MY work really drive me crazy, dont u be shocked. keep healthy. stay strong. smile... keep to yourself. be in the crowd when needed too... Allah is always by our side... remember to Him and He'll remember you even more... take care guys.

i won my bet..

2006-05-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

well i didnt really win my bet, it is jus an offer i made to my P6s pupils. told them that i will "belanja" (treat) them to KFC if they ALL i repeat ALL can get 55 marks and above. i never tot i would actually tell them what i'll be giving them.. what if i cant fulfill em? alah, cant be i cannot afford 100 bucks. anyhow, i told them that i can even say i'll give them 100 bucks each BUT if they are not going to work hard they aint gonna get it. i was a bit worried coz i think 55 is not much to ask for.
thankful for the phrase IF THEY ALL GET 55 ABOVE. phew!! and 2 of my kids didnt make it. well i was happy.. yes i'll say it again HAPPY. y?? these tow are my stars.. they are non-malays. kishan and sagar. but according to their ex-teachers, they did improved a lot to consider the fact that they are weak.
so i m HAPPY that they improved though they flunked and also HAPPY that i dont have to fork out that much money... hahahah... but i m still very sincere abt it. on 2nd thoughts, i think i'll give em something, a 2B PENCIL each maybe... heheh.. jus to show that they are going at the right path. jus one thing... 55 marks is not much to ask for is it??
exams over now lets start book B. sigh.... nite nitey y'all.

Happy 23 mths anniversary 5/5/06 HUNEY!

2006-05-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

To my wonderful Hubby,
Happy 1 year 11 months anniversay SAYANG!! Thank you for your undevoted love, care and friendship you gave me. I thank Allah for everyday of our blissed marriage.
May more days, months, years of blessed marriage be in our path of life.
I LOVE YOU SAYANG....

chatted in chat room after ages!!!

2006-05-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

i am having a terrible headache today. was fine till after school... sigh. once in awhile when i have nothing to do after school, i must have this headache. i used the time at school while waiting to fetch my hubby to surf the internet to 'plan' for my trip. it came to a point where i was mentally blocked. guess what?? after the many many years, i went to alamak chat line! hahaha.. was hoping that i will chat with someone from paris/london or even people who have been there before. and thank god i did! i chatted with Haay. he claimed he's from Amsterdam. given benefit of doubt i believe him. he do have loads of infos on travelling in paris. like being street wise and what to be wary of. not bad. so even if he's not from Amsterdam, i welcome the chat.
seriously, even i've not been in chat room for ages, i can sa nothing changed much at all. or i dare say nothing changed at all. there still sleazy or chep thrilled chatters out there. i wonder when will the day come where we can really have a fulfilling chat. like exchange of views and sharing experience with someone from the other side of the world. more of that rather than those "can-u-give-me-what-i-need" kindda chat.
i did emailed Haay and he really gave me good advice. though i more looking for directions! hahaha. but all's well. my planning is going smoothly. but help and advice is very most welcome!
that's all for tonight folks... drop a note! take care!

dinner buffet

2006-05-07T23:30:00.001+08:00

ah.. this is my wonderful nenek. She actually asked me to snap a photo of her kissing me! hhahaha. i totally love her to bits. dunno how i will take it when she's gone. *touch and go! touch and go!* we went to Sakura International Buffet at Downtown East this evening. Initially the staff was rather apprehensive to give us a seat where can accomodate my mum in wheels. After explaining and reasoning, he said he'll try. i called back before i reach the place, eventually he said all taken care of. well done sakura! my mum enjoyed herself. my grandma had her tummy full. i kept on eating.. hahahha. ate 9 oysters. love oysters!!! yummy! literally went for the expensive stuff. also plenty of sushis... yummy.
tom begin of another week. i'll try survive. hahah marking gonna be on wednesday. maybe i can meet up with frens along the way. miss u guys!
k, gonna watch Ali Setan now.. "sakit perut? makan kacang!" ciaoz!
i also included the photos of me at Toys r Us! hehehe..

My best weekend by far

2006-05-07T13:13:00.000+08:00

hi pepz... wanted to write in last night but too very tired. anyhow now also can write la..

i went out with my hubby and mum. yes my mum!! it has been ages since we've been out jus the two of us. but this time with my love also.

we went to have lunch with both mum and dad at Ayam Bakar Wong Solo. we had ayam bakar, ayam penyet (squashed chicken), kangkung belachan, ikan bakar and sup buntut (oxtail soup)

aiyoh!!! so little the portion! i was not happy. tot that we can reminiscence the time we had at Bali eating at Wong Solo too. alas! it's crappy la. wont recommend it to frens. unless u jus wanna try2 ok la.

then me, hubby and mum went to drive2 around town. she loves to be driven around. so do i! we solat at masjid kampung omar. then we ate and shop at Plaza Singapura. Carrefour has so much variety of products! difficult to find good brand pesto sauce till i was there. after solat at Plaza Singapura (anywhere also can solat as long we dont obstruct and trouble others), we went to Toys r Us! i love toys r us!! bought presents for Wafy (cuzins). he said he wanna gun that can play at swimming pool. super soaker!! the once in-thing for kids. i bet his folks will scream if i really buy him one. I DID! hahahha... i dont care they scold me or what. it's all worth it when i see the gleam and happiness in his eyes. his brothers got one too... only smaller( not b'day what!) Haiz... i hope i dont spoil these kids. they are my treasures!

then we went to buy dinner from Beach Rd. sadly wasnt too good. after the GE results were announced, me and hubby went to Serangoon Stadium to check out the scene. the gathering ground for PAP. Fuyyoooo.... such a massive crowd. why i was there? MY HUBBY AVID FAN OF GATHERINGS! he jus wan to catch the scene live in action. sigh... i jus stood there cudnt be bothered. we all know who is going to win right from the start right... why bother?? pls dont quote me.. this is not a defamatory statement. (hahahha)

so why is it it is my best weekend. becoz of my mum! my mum is a very strong person. her faith in Allah and her trust in Him made her stronger each and everyday. despite her difficulties to walk, she managed to find the courage to overcome it. wherever we are she still solat. i am proud of her progressive health and recovery. i pray to Allah everyday that He'll protect her all the time. she'll recover fully one day. i believe she will. I JUS WANNA BE STRONG LIKE MY MUMMY! who do YOU wanna be like?

BLOG AWARENESS

2006-05-05T16:54:00.000+08:00

Now i've actually learnt how to use my blog at the upmost potential. thanks to my far far and away fren... my $5-nasi-lemak-everything-put-late-late-night-supper-eater fren, Shikin! kuakuakua... i m going to try to put in photos this time round. Allah... make it be right..
here goes nothing!

my upcoming holiday

2006-05-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

hello everyone, i rarely update my blog due to.... errmmm maybe not disciplined enuf. hahaha. anyhow, i am very excited for my upcoming holidays. why?? Well, it is my first time somewhere out of asia or asean countries. very the suaku one.

however there are so many challenges i must say in all the process. eh who say it easy planning a holiday. i can say i am a very ambitious person. i wanna do everything and anything at the amount of time i have in my hand. so i kept thinking. everyday also think how to plan it right. where EVERYONE is happy. where EVERYONE gets to do what they want. where MONEY is concern it'll be handled with care and within our budget.

talking about budget.... how much must we have? some say a few Ks... say 4 or 5 grand for the both of us would be good. WOW!!! do i have that?? so we (hubby and i) came up with some ways in covering the expenses... hehehe. it's very exciting when we are discussing together. there is a communication. like i am able to understand what he wants and he too understands what i want.

the problem is my bluddy memory is the size of a pea! i cant seem to remember what he said. i know he wanna go Manchester... but why so i cant remember!!!! so maybe i try to ask him again and ask him to write it down so i wont forget. the more i say i wont forget the more i will! stupidz.
i really have always dreamt of going France, Switzerland and England, London. however i think it will be difficult or almost impossible to travel in 3 or 4 countries in 16 days. dont laugh! dats why i need people to discuss with. i think it's difficult la. i dunno how to say it.

exterior i am really excited and wanna tell the world that i m going somewhere far. but deep down inside....... Allah knows. tell you guys more next time.

not looking good

2006-03-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my team lost again. this time is perfect... 49 to NIL!!! can u imagine that??!! i feel so sorry for the kids for not training them with the best trainings ever. i think i can groom them well given more time. i love the game that is why i took up this CCA. i love it very much. why cant i excel in something. i dunno if i can take it. it is sad to noe that i might not be capable to give my best. i will try... try my very best. i hope that i can teach better too. with my very best effort and give these children the best education so they can produce and achieve better results. may God help me. Insya Allah...

what a day

2006-03-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

alright my second time writing. i jus feel really tired this whole week jus becoz more things that should have been done over the holidays are not completed. so now i must rush like a mad cow. i was really disappointed when my team lost in the netball game. i mean it is a stupid lost. the strength between the two teams was much the less the same. but how ever crappy we lost i am still very proud of my kids as they managed to score 2 goals. above all i am very sad becoz it seems nothing that i've done is going to make it big. it's really irritating. so many things i've done but didnt go al the way thru. i hate not bein able to be in control. i m so very sleepy i thing i yappin shit.... thank you very nuch.

my first day blogging

2006-03-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

i am crazy as hell.i really want to run and shout and at the same freakign time i want to shake.shake my bon bon.. *woo hoo!!